Camera get on Friday, unless taxes kill my pay!


Anyway.
I'm in love again.
With... normal fashion?!

With my new-found desire to work on myself, I've been steadily opening myself up to new things, like fashion, and the dreaded make-up.
Haha, look at me, my journals are nothing but girly stuff. Earlier me would have been really embarrassed, but nowadays, I actually like this side of me. It's kind of like a fusion thing happening.

But yeah, I'm starting to realize why I lean more towards Japanese fashion and make-up than any other. For one, our frames (though I'm inches taller, and therefore probably a bit leggier) and skin tone are very similar, as I tend to have a very yellow hue to my skin. I especially love their current trend of natural and minimalist make-up. I still love Lolita, but I know I can't wear Lolita everywhere, so I'm branching out. You know, I grew up with girls who had curves, and as a result, they always wanted to show them off. I had nothing to show, so I really hated the fashion around here. Cleavage this, cleavage that.... Not that I can't get them, it just takes a little more effort. Of course, over there, they, like me, are not so... Well, you know. Yet they manage to still be sexy and cute.... two words I never thought could go together XD Ugh, why'd I have to live in an area where people made fun of me for having the same petite features?? I was so unhappy for so long because of people doing that ;_; Japanese fashion (and Korean fashion as well) seems to be geared more towards waists and legs.

My legs!
I used to be very self-conscious about them. Well, I still am, but not to the extent as I was before. My knees don't seem so knobby anymore, though I still hate these pin ankles of mine! I've learned that my weight tends to be in the center of my body, especially my chest and stomach (I actually went back up a cup size, with my weight finally coming back, and I should be a 32C now). Gotta tone my legs! I definitely need some calf definition, if I can get them without them looking like an Olympic runner's legs.

Anemia seems to be a thing of the past now. I've finally climbed back up to 106lbs after a whole year. I might have to really be careful about what I eat... but not yet. My goal is 120lbs, a healthier weight for my height.

Still love my straightener. I go from curly to straight now, and back again. I've been reading magazines (of course, Japanese, but only because I happened to be reading them for fashion and make-up tips anyway) so I can see what's out there. Ugh, I miss my long hair. So all it took was 9 months for me to regret it! Lol, okay, I don't actually regret it, I had a ton of split ends and hair breakage, it was the best thing to do. And now that I can actually take care of my hair by myself, I'll let it grow back healthier. I think I want bangs too, maybe lighten the color some. You know, it just that... Now there's so many long styles I want to try! Exentions cost too much, and I don't want to have to get a wig.... I'll deal.

Looking at magazines to subscribe to. I like Agaha and Galmori so far. I love their tips (no, I can't understand a word of Japanese, but there's so many pictures, I can get it.... I will probably try to learn Japanese eventually though, I'd love to be able to read them too). And have I mentioned how adorable I find Japanese girls? DEY'RE SO KYOOTE!!! Haha, I like Japan, if I could go there for a few weeks, it would make my life. And I would totally randomly pick a guy and declare he's my vacation boyfriend, lol (well, probably not, but I think that would be hilarious). I'd have to bring an extra couple of suitcases though, for the trip back. And a ton of souvenir money. My goodness, I'd need to save somewhere like $10K! Well, probably a lot less, but when I go shopping, I'm going shopping.



I'm just rambling because it's the middle of the night.
My skin is clearing up lots. I'll be attempting make-up soon.